Crops that you might want to check out this next month

BackPorch Memories is having a crop on April 17- April 19th

WeScrap is having a crop on April 3, 4, and 5.

My Sketch World is also having an online crop April 18 - April 25.

old pics

My Aunt gave me an old photo album that was filled with my childhood memories.
This is one of the photos that I got out of it. I am the one in the white dress and my sister Tracie was the one in the blue dress. At first I was a little disappointed that it didn't show our faces but then again it was a great photo because I can remember how we all loved Easter. The egg hunts, the baskets filled with candy and stuffed animal that would be waiting on the porch that the Easter Bunny would drop off for us. The ham dinner that my granny would make with Mashed Potatoes and Brown gravy. I did this layout for a challenge on WeScrap.

This was a layout I did for the LP Cruise about Christine. The first layout I have done since she passed away.

I played a little with my blog today. I posted scrappy sites I go to. My fav's those are WeScrap, Life Preservers, and ScrapAttack Scrapbooking. Don't get me wrong the other sites are just as great but the ones above are easy to follow and the ladies at these sites are the warmest loving and caring women I know. I also want to put links up of the sketch sites that I have found and Blogs that I am following. This is a work in progress. I hope to start as well to post pics that I have taken. This blogging is all new and looking at the stuff you can add at times is a little confusing to me.

Me and Phillip cleaned up outside today and we also planted some Tomato plants. I thought it wasn't a great idea because the way the weather has been doing but he thought otherwise. So hopefully we won't have to buy some more plants because of a freeze.

It was nice getting outside. It made my brain not think of the bad stuff that has happened the last month. This weekend really wasn't a good one for me. I had wanted to get my final layout done for the LP Cruise but just didn't have the energy or will power to do it. Plus they were having a crop I popped in and out all weekend checking out things. They had many great challenges to do but I just didn't feel like messing with it. I hope that April will be a lot different and I can get back in the swing of things. I know with what happened to Christine will take a while to get used to but I hope to take next month and heal more.

Stinky Jeans

I bought a new pair of jeans the other day from Lane Bryant. They are a really dark stone wash. I smelled an odor but thought it was because they were new and it would be gone after I washed them. Well these stinky jeans have now been washed over 20 times and the smell still hasn't gone away. I asked the sales lady today at Lane Bryant what I could do to get the smell out and she was like it just has to wear out of them. Then she said how do you think I feel I am surrounded by that smell all day. I guess from now on when I buy a pair of jeans or for that matter any type of clothing I am going to smell it first. And if it stinks no matter how much I like it I am leaving it behind.

My Aunt gave me a scare last night. I kept calling and calling and she would not answer so I finally went over to her house about 9 pm to check on her to make sure she was okay. I pulled up just as she got home and she was like what are you doing here. I said checking to make sure you were okay. So I told her she needed to call me more so I could make sure she was doing okay. But that is not going that great because I told her to call me this morning but guess what I am the one that ended up calling her to make sure she was okay.

Last night was scared going over because I was afraid something might have happened to her. My Aunt Becky has been having problems since September with breathing. She had her heart checked and a stress test both come back perfect and a lung scan all came back great. Bump up to December 23 my Aunt Becky fell on her porch Christine went and got my Aunt and I met them up at the ER. We waited for 6 hours up there my Aunt in pain her Pinky finger was sticking off to the side. Well she was supposed to have surgery the first week in January to relocate her finger. Well she went in for the pre-op stuff and they found out that she had something wrong with her heart. She had leaky valves in her heart. Well since than right before christine died she spent a week in the hospital they ran some more test and found that she had a hole in her heart and her heart is in afib (sp). So she s now taking blood thinners to help thin out her blood so they can shock her heart back into rhythm. This past Friday she goes to have her blood check to make sure that it is staying thin enough when she finds out that they found something in the scan of her lungs. She doesn't have another scan until April 13 of her lungs. She has been really depressed saying with the quality of life she has at the moment is not worth living. I am trying to keep her spirts up but it is hard because she is like with as much as I got wrong with me I should have died before Christine.

My Aunt Becky gave me a photo album of old childhood photos of my family last night so I could copy off pictures. I bought a new photo album today so I can transfer the photos in there instead of the one that it is in now. The old album is one of those magnitic type you lay the pictures down across the page and a single sheet covers up the pics. I bought the album that has the individual sleeves and is acid free. I copied off about 30 pics today. As I copy off the photos in the old albums I will transfer the orgianals to the new album that I bought.

I have scrapped one layout since Christine died and it was for the Life Preserver Cruise. This is the last week of the cruise. This weekend they are having there Spring Fling Crop. I hope to do a few layouts for the crop. If you have never been to the Lp go check them out there is lots of wonderful ladies at the message board.

I also have to get busy the next couple of days on WeScrap and complete some of the March challenges. I signed up for another year on there message board. They have lots of fun challenges you can participate in but if you are not a member you cannot qualify for the prizes. They are having a Spring Crop on April 3, 4, and 5. WeScrap has an awesome group of ladies as well that make you feel at home on the board.

I got my Raks mailed off yesterday for ScrapAttack Scrapbooking. I hope to in the next week or so start doing the challenges over there. They have lots going on at their board very fun place and wonderful women. You can earn bottlecaps for doing challenges. They also have a store that is wonderfully stocked in my opinion and Lauri (the Owner) is getting great things in. The kit for this month has these adorable crochet owls she got off of Etsy.

I guess I better go and cook something for lunch.

Hugs to everyone..

I took my aunt out today to eat and let her be with me while I was doing some other errands. I got my eyes checked today. I didn't realize that I had not been to the eye doctor in 3 years. Time does really fly. I made that comment to the eye doc and he was like you know I got this explained to me once. When you are 10 years old a year is like 10% of your life but when you are 52 a year is more like 2% of your life.

Christine was always running our Aunt around everywhere or going out with her because the last few years I have been substitute teaching on my days off which our Mon-Wed. I go back to work tomorrow to my regular job but at least I am only having to work 3days this week. But my Aunt was talking a lot about christine today. It felt for me being the one that was having to do her running but I didn't mind doing it. It was really nice being out with her.

Next week is our spring break I think the only thing I will be doing with the kids is take the to chuck e cheese. Hopefully the weather is nice too so we can go to the work and be able to work outside in the garden. It would be really nice to plant a few flowers next week.

I also checked out a website my friend Danielle told me about. The information it held was very helpful to me since the recent loss of my sister. Staci Compher is a very inspiring women and how she has dealt with life since the tragic loss of her husband Ed. Go check out this site and read her story. http://inspiredbynana.blogspot.com/2009/03/introducing-staci-compher.html

Have a great blessed day everyone.

I know today has been a really nice day out really the last two days have been nice. I got to sit outside watching my cat gizmo who stays outside play and jump at bugs. It really made me feel at ease watching him and taking in the weather. The tulips are about to bloom. I sat there in the sun thinking about Christine a lot today. I know it will be a long time to get over the shock because when my Mom died 10 years ago it took me a long while to get over the fact and we expected my mom's death since she had cancer. Christine loved flowers, and trees. With Easter coming Christine would get those plastic eggs and hang them up in the trees in her yard. You could always go over to her house and she would have flags and things outside or inside for the matter on display for the holiday. She loved decorating things. I can't believe that I cannot pick up the phone and talk to her I wanted to today several times badly. We would talk on the phone usually 3 times a day when I was off of work but sometimes when it was my day to work I would generally get a call into her at least once that day.

When you lose someone it makes you and others around you realize things. Phillip and me having been living together for about 5 years. This made his realize that he doesn't want me going anywhere. Which before he didn't want me going anywhere than either but he is wanting to make more of a comminment to me and the kids. So only time will tell I am happy with the way things are and have been between us. But if Marriage comes along I will be very blessed and happy. I just wish Christine had been around to see.

I lost my sis a week ago and it just doesn't seem real still. I want to pick up the phone and talk to her so badly. I got a phone call shortly after getting to work on March 6 that she was gone. At first I was thinking okay where did she go then they said that she had died in the middle of the night in bed. My aunt didn't want to do an autopsy so it is really only speculation as to what happened. The cornory thought that she might of had a brain anyerism or a stroke. We had told him about her herina bothering her and she had a knot come up from her son hitting her a couple of weeks ago. She had told me she was having difficutly having BM. She also had told me over a few months ago about waking up and having her tongue sore because she had chewed it and her whole body was sore and that she could taste vomit in her mouth. I told her it sounded like a seizure but she wouldn't go to the doctor. She said she was making an appointment to go back to see the herina doctor but I guess it will be one of those things that we will never now. I now she is in a better place now because she did suffer from aches and pains associated with the hernia. Plus her two youngest kids can no longer abuse her.

Other than this happening just trying to learn how to cope with my loss. My aunt is doing okay she can hardly believe this happened just earlier in the week she was taken christine around the cemetary and showing her what stone she wanted for her tombstone and christine was like Becky would you stop it. Aunt Becky is upset because she was figuring she would go first not christine going first at the age of 40.